- I developed a slight paralysis in my left arm my senior year of high school
- dad comes of the closet during my second year of marriage and seminary
- mom and dad divorce (see above)
- my youngest son has Down syndrome and a major heart defect
- my son had heart surgery at 2 months old (heart defect corrected)
- I have preached a friend's funeral who committed suicide
- been there as friends and family have committed themselves into mental health hospitals for depression and suicidal thoughts
I want to surrender. I want to surrender to God's will in my life, not just accepting a call to ministry, but as a husband, a father, a brother, a son. I want to surrender not just to say I survived, but that I learned and grew through the events of my life. I want to surrender in the little ways, the right ways, the things that no one else will notice, but I will know.
I guess the best way to put it is, "Christ bore the weight of the cross so I do not have to bear the weight of the world, even my world." When I surrender fully to Christ, I do find the saying to be true, "Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30) Surrendering is much easier and life-giving than merely surviving.